Reactions from my “Secret Boyfriend”

(BP is not my boyfriend — we’re just dating.  But he’s the reason my friends think I have a boyfriend.  He’s also the person I am keeping quiet for now for myriad reasons.)
BP called me this afternoon and I told him about the Secret Boyfriend conversations.  Then I told him they had deduced it was [...]

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Disruptions from the EA

Last night, BP’s EA (who is in love with him and likes to think she runs his life) called me at 11:20 pm (!) to ask if I’d heard from BP because he’s not calling her back, she doesn’t know where he is, and she “got a weird voicemail message from him” (the substance of [...]

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Slightly Lonely on a Sunday Morning

This morning, I awoke, made a more involved version of my morning breakfast frittata and pot of tea, and plugged my machine into the stereo to listen to some jazz standards.
About 10 minutes in, I realized I was getting a little lonely.  I missed BP, just in general, thinking of how nice it would be [...]

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The Wrong Guess for my “Secret Boyfriend”

My friends are extremely close.  We are all overly involved in each other’s lives, but we all try to keep certain things private.  I am the most private of all, especially regarding relationships.
My friends suspect that I am secretly seeing someone.  They are correct.  They want full disclosure, but I told them that there’s nothing [...]

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Below the Weight Loss Goal

I have spent the Summer traveling and eating most of my meals in restaurants and drinking wine and going on dates.  I was surprised, therefore, that, as of this morning, I am officially below my weight loss goal.
I have not been what I consider fat for more than 4 months.  In general, I am really [...]

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The Aggravation of Dependence

For at least the next few weeks, I am completely financially dependent on BP.  There are many reasons for this, but it is all rather chafing.  The biggest reason is that our venture is not yet generating revenue.  I need to perform work for us to get there and, in the interim, he pays for [...]

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Romance: Looking Back and Looking Ahead

Since it is the last week of Summer (and BP is supposed to be traveling), I am mostly taking this week off.  I have a few things to do, which add up to about a 45 minute meeting each day and maybe an hour of writing.  Overall, it’s an easy week.  I am working from [...]

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A Pleasant Surprise

After spending all last evening missing BP and lamenting how long it would be until I got to see him again, I received a pleasant surprise when he called to say he was in town.

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Missing Him

I miss him.
I cannot help it.
I’ve been thinking about him all afternoon.  I am considering telling him that I miss him, but I just do not think it’s appropriate right now.  It’s a new thing.  It’s not been going on long enough for me to say “I miss you because I haven’t seen you today.”  [...]

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Romance: Outside the Vortex

I am back from another business trip with BP.  I am exhausted and drained, in part because I am time-shifted, but also because I was completely caught up in the BP vortex.  The time I spend with BP is extremely intense.

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