Career: Stressful Days

This has been an incredibly stressful couple of days.
The market difficulties are shaking some of our best clients to their core.  BP is stressed about the market — which is terrifying.  I have been responding to lawsuits against two of my clients, who are pondering bankruptcy.  I was asked to provide a ton of verification [...]

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Missing the Secret Boyfriend

BP is out of the country, as I had intuited when he did not call me last night.
He always call me when he lands from his weekend trips.  When I had not heard from him, I knew exactly where he was, even which hotel.  He was shocked, but I have known him for years.  I [...]

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Reflections on the First Date and More Lessons About Me

I am just not sure about N. On paper, he’s great. He wants me to be impressed by him. He wants me to be wowed by him. I am not, really. I mean, yes, he’s accomplished a lot. Yes, he’s done well.
Now, to his credit, he’s not a proud [...]

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The First Date is Done

It’s not fair to compare N to BP, but it’s hard not to.
Dinner was okay. It was a nice restaurant, not a great one. We had a nice bottle of wine with dinner and my food was excellent. We went to the right place for a post-dinner drink (I had club soda). [...]

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First Date Jitters and Advice

This turned out to be easy . . .
BP sent word that he is on a jet “heading north” for his normal football weekend activities.  Since I knew he was flying up for the game (as he does each weekend), it was a longshot that he’d delay to come to town, especially with an early [...]

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2 Hot Dogs = 1.2 Pounds

The funny things about weight loss and weight gain is how many different elements affect it.
I understand why people get so frustrated because one little thing can throw off the scale.
Yesterday, A brought over lunch from Dog Almighty.  He loves it because they have great vegetarian stuff.  I ate two delicious grilled beef hotdogs with [...]

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Romance: Dueling Dates

I have two dates scheduled for tomorrow night: dinner with BP and my first date with N, which is only tentatively scheduled.
My preference is to have dinner with BP.  I like N, but it’s new and I would prefer to keep getting to know him via email and phone before we see each other again. [...]

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Insight: Overcoming the Malaise

BP canceled tomorrow’s trip because he hurt his back.  It’s the third trip in a row he has canceled as he has been ailing over the last 3 weeks.    Rather than packing and prepping for a big meeting or two, I have had time to relax and think.  I noticed tonight that I am [...]

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Style: “Vintage”

I just bumped into one of my neighbors, who complimented me on a dress she saw me wearing a few days ago.  
She said it was beautiful and looks like “X brand.”  I said, well, it is and “vintage.”  She said, “where did you find X brand vintage?!!!”  
I laughed: “My closet.”

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Settling vs Acceptance

I just read this on Huffington Post: When Is It Settling?
It’s always interesting to contemplate where we settle and for what we are settling.  We always make compromises in relationships and every relationship has its own internal rules and logic.
My relationship with A was probably the best relationship I’ve ever had.  We are still close — [...]

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