Being True to Myself and Battling PMS Brain

This afternoon, I did something I have not done for months: I laced up my kicks and went for a long stroll around the trail.  The weather was gorgeous — bright, cloudless, temperature in the 60s — and I had a wonderful time being alone in my thoughts with my iPod.
Part of my stroll was [...]

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Reality and Thoughts Diverge, Thanks to PMS

I have written, published, and privatized three posts since Thursday night.  All of them are remarkably crazy in parts.  (If you read me in rss, you poor thing, you know that.)  There are some real things happening, some real things I am upset about, some real things that might make me happy (or not), but [...]

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Thinking of BFD

I have gotten into the habit of speaking with BFD at night, after our workdays end.  For the past 8 days or so, we have called each other sometime between 9 and 10.
Today, I have had a particularly bad day — terrible allergic reaction, very stressed, kind of fighting with BP who is being awful.  [...]

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Some Days, I Hate My Partner 3

I am so angry I can barely see straight.
BP, my business partner, a man who is actively trying to [date] me, is being such a dick I am incapable of properly processing it.
We have a deal.  I am working my ass off — he is supposed to cover my expenses until our business cash flows.  [...]

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Becoming Crazy About Him

I am sitting on the sofa, after having spoken to BFD for 15 minutes, and I cannot stop beaming. Speaking to him makes me so happy, it’s ridiculous.  I am a grown woman with a challenging career and a vibrant social life, but when I speak to him, I feel like a teenager.  I melt.
I [...]

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“I Never Use a Dictionary”

I always keep my dictionary open on my desktop.  My Mac’s built-in dictionary is Oxford American (my favorite dictionary of which I own two copies in hardcover — one for home, one for office) and it also has a built-in thesaurus and wikipedia.
When I was at a cocktail party last week, W’s girlfriend said proudly, [...]

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The Fifth Date — Reflections and Quick Thoughts

I am holding back a bit with BFD because it’s still newish.  We are becoming good friends, speaking regularly.  We are having sex, though not every time we see each other.  I am still holding back a little.  I am not yet telling him everything I want or need from a relationship.  I am not [...]

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The Fifth Date

Tonight, we went to dinner at a hip, slightly divey restaurant.  There was a long wait, but he found two seats at the bar, so that is where we ate.  We both ate a bit too much, but we had a good time.  The conversation never dulled, we could see some of the game, and [...]

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A Phone Date

Yesterday was the third day in a row his business has interfered with my social life.  After his last minute business invitation, we agreed to push the date to later, but then he was delayed by an additional two hours getting back in to town.  He let me know the change after I was dressed [...]

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Grinning Stupidly, and Being Weird

BFD just called to postpone our date and I am beyond thrilled.  Well, not by the postponement, but because we’re making huge progress.  I am sitting on the sofa, grinning stupidly, and very happy.
Okay, so he is postponing because he just scored a last minute invite to a reception affecting one of his deals.  It’s [...]

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