Date 28, The First Booty Call

I was talking to W on the phone and watching the Boston-Chicago game, when BFD called. It was like 8:25 and I had just finished cooking dinner (one-half of a habanero sausage from whole foods), so I ate and chatted with BFD for 40 minutes.
For the most part, we spoke about business, his (married) [...]

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On the Cusp of Seven Months

A lot of people google “best first date” and wind up here, which is no surprise since I do claim that my date with BFD was the Best First Date ever. (It was.) I gave him his name BFD for the best first date (and the fact he is a big fucking deal). [...]

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Stress, Money, and a Life Vest

My stress level keeps spiking, which is negatively impacting pretty much everything. I have a few important things to accomplish, but I am distracted by money concerns.
BP and I are battling and our relationship is tenuous at best. I keep thinking he is moving on without me. He says he’s [...]

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Containing the Crazy 2

So, the thing about knowing you are crazy . . . you can stop things before they get out of hand.
That is the whole point of containment.
I am extremely self-centered. I know this. If you read this site, you know this. If you are in my life, you know this [...]

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Containing the Crazy

This is a brief irrational rant.
I am very unhappy with BFD for very stupid reasons, so I am trying to work my way through my issues before I explode and say something (more) hurtful.
Overwhelmingly, BFD is demonstrating that we are in a close relationship, that he is happy, and that he is enjoying his life [...]

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Date 27: “We Don’t Always Have to Have Sex”

Toward the end of our twenty-seventh date, I stood behind BFD as he did our post-dinner dishes and grabbed his ass. He told me to stop because he would get too excited, adding “We don’t always have to have sex.”
Um, yes, we do.
Well, okay, we don’t but I did shave my legs [...]

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Date 26 — He’s Funny?

I am a bit conflicted when thinking about last night’s date. In some ways, I am not happy. I have been really stressed out for the last few days. My temper is short. I am cranky. Last night’s date was a bit unsatisfying for me, and not just sexually. [...]

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New Goal: Improved Fitness

I have a new goal to help overcome my significant body image issues: improved fitness and regular exercise.
I have started exercising regularly. On Sunday, I did 90 minutes on the trail. On Monday, I did some stretching because my foot hurt. Today, I did 30 minutes of aerobics, with a [...]

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Date 25 . . . Fail

I just had the shortest date of my life: about 90 minutes.
BFD called me at 715 and asked me to pick up chinese from our favorite spot, so I did. It’s en route. I ordered his favorite, a new dish for me, and got the hot sauce he loves.
I made it there a [...]

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It Feels Like Love

I have many things on my mind. I am stressed out, broke (thanks to my inability to bill clients promptly [yikes, massive fail]), and I have far too much work to do.
Yet, my thoughts are filled with BFD. I have been kicking my own ass for 90 minutes for failing to leap [...]

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