The First Night (Date 5)

LP, who had been working like mad all week and weekend and moving and being a dad, wanted to pick me up at 9 after he’d wrapped up at the office on Sunday night to show me his new house.
He was delayed and it was starting to get late. Before he arrived, after confirming [...]

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LP’s Disappearance

LP is gone, I guess. It’s been since Sunday since we’ve spoken and we have no plans for the weekend.
Over five days, I texted him twice and called him once and left a voice mail.
I am somewhat devastated that he went from hot to cold, even though he’d warned me this would happen with [...]

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My Favorite Exes

At the end of a hideously bad day, I met W for a glass of wine at my neighborhood dive bar. It’s not a real dive bar. It’s a hipster dive bar, but I love love love it. They have excellent food (see, not a real dive bar) and I like the [...]

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Today’s PMS Freak-Out

I have been missing LP.
I know it’s early, but I really like him. We’re very similar . . . and since I am a narcissist, well, I am kinda crazy about him.
Last week, we exchanged hundreds of texts, talked on the phone until the wee hours (including after we’d just seen each other), and [...]

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Lingering Pains

I am awake early (for me) on a Wednesday morning. I am in pain — mostly physical, but I have some heart pain this morning, too.
Last night, I went downtown for my workout with BFD. I knew he would not be there . . . he’s away on business (as usual). The [...]

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The Delicate Balance

I am getting very excited about LP. He’s adorable, attentive, ridiculously successful, and genuinely likes me, not that he actually knows me yet, of course.
In the meantime, I still have a relationship with BFD, though strained and constrained and perhaps irrevocably broken. But, perhaps not.
LP emailed me last night on the way to [...]

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A New New New Man

Things with BFD have been bad for a while.  He’s withdrawn from our relationship and I am aggravated and aggrieved.
In response, I have been shutting down emotionally and making plans to move on.
I have been worried that by sticking with BFD for so long, I may have missed the opportunity to be with someone great.
I [...]

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Miss Congeniality

I am currently obsessed with my workout.  Obviously.  In fact, I am more obsessed with my workout than I am with BFD.
A few weeks ago, we had a new trainer start and I have “beacquaintanced” her, not quite “befriend,” but we are warm.  She speaks to me before and after class, and she is always [...]

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Feeling Good

Nina Simone was playing at the bar tonight where I grabbed a quick post-workout dinner, but I am feeling good.  I really am.
There are a lot of shitty things going on — stress with BFD, financial pressure, problems with BP, etc., ad nauseam, but I am feeling good.
Tonight, I had my Tuesday workout and it [...]

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“My BFD”

It’s getting hard to write lately because I am incredibly busy and when I am not incredibly busy, I am spending slightly less time staring at my navel.
I am just as ego-centric, I am becoming less reflective.  This is not a positive development.
I am still sorta dating BFD, but I was traveling and then he [...]

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