Happy In My Own Skin

I am floating, really, for no reason. I am happy and smiling at the world. I am moving with confidence and authority. I am exuding sex. I look at my body and think, hell, yes.
To what can I attribute this obvious change in attitude — working out again. Seriously, it’s [...]

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Attitude Adjusted.

My brain feels functional for the first time in weeks.  The past 3 days, I have been finally getting my head together, which mainly consisted of pulling it out of my “wonderful ass.”
This morning, I had a lovely chat with my long-time, semi-retired business partner BP. I have been slacking, unable to do my job, [...]

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Two Questions

My ex A is still one of my best friends.  We have been family to each other for nine years, though we split up almost two years ago.
Because he is attending an intensive 2.5 month training program for his new blue collar career, we have not seen much of each other lately and I have [...]

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“Developing a New Skill Set”

BFD just called me midday after returning from a long day trip out of state yesterday to clarify some points from our email argument from the day before.
I wrote him a long email that I did not send that addressed all of issues he raised. As I put the final touch on it, he [...]

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“Big Comeback”

Just like that, everything changes.
Despite the challenges detailed here ad nauseam, I am very fortunate. Because I am very open to the world and open to opportunities, interesting things fall into my lap. I am now on the cusp of something W described repeatedly as my “big comeback,” something so big [...]

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Beating Back the Darkness

Yeah, so obviously I have been depressed. The stress and strain has been unreal.
Some of it is hormonal, but most of it is the result of how difficult every single day has been for a while. There are real serious challenges I face and I have no control over my own recovery.
At the [...]

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Today’s Aggravation

I am very formal and I respect protocol.
As he headed off for a week of training with his coaches, BFD said to me from his cab on Sunday to get the car key from his assistant. I emailed him on Monday and followed up to ask if I should call her to [...]

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Quick Thoughts: Implementation and Aggravation

I had a relatively aggravating day, and yet, I feel pretty great.
Technology
My big expensive laptop has some significant problems. It’s out of warranty, because I am an idiot. It’s only a little over two years old. I paid more than $2,500 for it. It’s now a paperweight. Well, if it [...]

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“Be the True You”

I received that message from my mother tonight, after I thanked her for giving me such great advice (and insight) the day before.
“Be the true you.”
It’s an easier thing to say than to do, but I have spent the day thinking about how to get back to being my best me. I am not [...]

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Disconnected Thoughts from Bed

I am spending the day working from bed.  It’s a busy day, but I am in pain.  My very late period finally arrived this morning, right it time to screw up my plans for the week.  Awesome!
Finance  
I have money.  Not a ton of money, but I am independent.  I had two really big bills come [...]

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