My Ugly Truth

The past two days have been a whirlwind and an emotional rollercoaster. I have still not fully processed everything and I still have things seared into my memory and other little moments are bubbling up to the surface.
In addition to the emotional upheaval and drama with BFD, I have been dealing with a crushing [...]

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“My Love”

That’s what LP called me tonight as we wrapped up a short, intense call.  We have not spoken in over a week and we’ve been texting sporadically while he’s been working so much.
This evening, I had begun to get irritated, and I started to think about dating and whether I would tell people I were [...]

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“Ten Minutes to Kiss” (Date 6)

I have floated home.  Okay, maybe not floated, but I am still beaming 3 hours after I last kissed LP.
LP works absurdly hard and right now, his schedule is insane.  He is working 7 days a week, often 18 hours a day.  Needless to say, we don’t have a lot of time to spend together.
This [...]

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On the Precipice

It’s been under a month and I am crazy about LP. To the point of being slightly obsessed with him. When I am with him, I am happy. When I think about him, I am happy. When I see a picture of him, I am happy. (I have one open [...]

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The First Night (Date 5)

LP, who had been working like mad all week and weekend and moving and being a dad, wanted to pick me up at 9 after he’d wrapped up at the office on Sunday night to show me his new house.
He was delayed and it was starting to get late. Before he arrived, after confirming [...]

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LP’s Disappearance

LP is gone, I guess. It’s been since Sunday since we’ve spoken and we have no plans for the weekend.
Over five days, I texted him twice and called him once and left a voice mail.
I am somewhat devastated that he went from hot to cold, even though he’d warned me this would happen with [...]

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BFD Returns, Again.

This started last night as a very different post.
I was thinking about BFD and how it felt to reconnect with him again this week as his girlfriend, not his friend/business partner/workout buddy/lover for the first time in months. That’s what’s been happening. He is suddenly aware again that I am here, [...]

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Crossroads and Boredom

None of this may make sense since there is no context as I have not posted the interim stuff, but for the past couple of days I have been freaking out because LP, the new guy, has gone completely silent.
After one week of constant interaction (and three dates) and a second week of [...]

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Quick Date, Long Post

I just wrote a very long post about last night’s date with LP. The long version has a 2114 word count.
The short version is we grabbed a late dinner downtown, made out in the elevator as we picked his car up from his office, and he drove me home and then returned to the [...]

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A Quick Dinner Date (Date 4)

I just had a very short, very wonderful date with LP. He’s lovely and amazing. I am trying not to be giddy, and I am failing miserably.
I had not seen him since Sunday night, when I laid next to him in bed for over an hour while he was nauseated and miserable. [...]

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