My Favorite Exes

At the end of a hideously bad day, I met W for a glass of wine at my neighborhood dive bar. It’s not a real dive bar. It’s a hipster dive bar, but I love love love it. They have excellent food (see, not a real dive bar) and I like the [...]

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“I Have a Date For You” (Day 6)

That is what W said when he called me this afternoon.  He said, I have a date for you for Friday night for the opening and the gala.
I was excited, and acknowledged “I am free on Friday night.”  I was W’s date last year, which is how I met N.
Sadly, the date . . . [...]

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Gossip Columns

I have been refreshing our local gossip columnists’ feeds and facebook to see if BFD shows up in the photos from last night.
Frankly, he should and I have already dealt with that pain of seeing him looking happy with other people.
We fought about why he was not taking me and it’s still a source of [...]

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Annoyed

We are now at the point in a BFD trip when I decide I hate him.  I do this every time.  The first few days are fine, then I start to really miss him, then I start to get pissed the fuck off that that man with whom I am in a relationship could be [...]

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The Ban

Since my perplexing date with BFD on Friday night, I have done a lot of soul searching.  I have been the recipient of unwanted, unneeded, and unheeded “advice” from my friends/family, and I have had to think seriously about myself, my relationship, and my friends.
I have been writing all of it down, but it’s very [...]

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Love, Loving, Loved

Back to my karmic lessons . . .
I’ve been beating myself up for a few mistakes I’ve made, but I have one enormous overall lesson from the past week: I am loved.  Really, my life is filled with people who love me, who fight for me, who would kill for me.
I do not know how [...]

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The Opening

I went to an opening of a new boutique last night with K, a beautiful girl and the girlfriend of one of my besties E.
We had a blast.  Unlike many of the attendees, K and I were actually shopping.  We tried on cocktail dresses . . . because we have weddings to attend in the [...]

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Attitude Adjusted.

My brain feels functional for the first time in weeks.  The past 3 days, I have been finally getting my head together, which mainly consisted of pulling it out of my “wonderful ass.”
This morning, I had a lovely chat with my long-time, semi-retired business partner BP. I have been slacking, unable to do my job, [...]

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Car Shopping

I am having a bad day at the end of a bad week.  As usual, I am stressed to breaking, except this week I do not have a car, so I have the added stress of negotiating my transportation, which adds an extra layer of suck to an already stressful situation.
It also means I am [...]

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The SO Bad Conversation 1

Today was another busy and crappy day.  Lots of work and family drama, and punctuated by the last conversation I wanted to have with BFD: the SO conversation.
I was home, having just clicked off an annoying conference call, when BFD rang through.  It was 106 pm.
I am not going to remember much else accurately, but [...]

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