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I have floated home.  Okay, maybe not floated, but I am still beaming 3 hours after I last kissed LP.
LP works absurdly hard and right now, his schedule is insane.  He is working 7 days a week, often 18 hours a day.  Needless to say, we don’t have a lot of time to spend together.
This [...]

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At the end of a hideously bad day, I met W for a glass of wine at my neighborhood dive bar. It’s not a real dive bar. It’s a hipster dive bar, but I love love love it. They have excellent food (see, not a real dive bar) and I like the [...]

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I am awake early (for me) on a Wednesday morning. I am in pain — mostly physical, but I have some heart pain this morning, too.
Last night, I went downtown for my workout with BFD. I knew he would not be there . . . he’s away on business (as usual). The [...]

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I am currently obsessed with my workout.  Obviously.  In fact, I am more obsessed with my workout than I am with BFD.
A few weeks ago, we had a new trainer start and I have “beacquaintanced” her, not quite “befriend,” but we are warm.  She speaks to me before and after class, and she is always [...]

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A year ago, BFD and I exchanged email for the first time . . . for hours.  It was amazing and led within days to the best first date ever.
Right now, we’re not in a good place.  We may get back there, but we may not.  I am still dating him, still having sex with [...]

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Today is one year since the start of my wildly passionate, bizarre and brief romantic relationship with my business partner BP.
In many ways, BP was the perfect first post-A relationship.  He spoiled me, protected me, and wooed me.  He is a cosmopolitan, erudite, successful semi-retired business man.  Tall and handsome, he is a commanding presence [...]

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So, here’s the thing . . .
His stress and weirdness on which I am giving him a pass for another week is affecting me — and it’s making me think he’s a total asshole.  In fact, I have been telling him he’s an asshole.
I am already envisioning life without him.  I am already moving on.  [...]

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I genuinely appreciate that people actually read this, remember things, and care.  Seriously, it means so much to know that people are paying attention and keeping me accountable.
When I originally started NNP, it was to chronicle my weight loss journey “publicly.”  I believed that in daily posting what I was eating, how I was exercising, [...]

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I have not yet unpacked my feelings about what he said or figured out what he meant.
Whenever it comes to BFD, I am wildly insecure.  I am incapable of telling him how I feel for fear of rejection, I am incapable of telling him what I want because I am not certain how open he [...]

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I am tempted to send this message to BFD: “in case i don’t tell you often enough, thank you for everything.”  I’ve been staring at the open email for 20 minutes.  It feels like a valediction.
We just had such a strange conversation that I feel the need to cap it with a valediction, to wish [...]

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