My goal since I weighed 170 was to ultimately get down to 125. I am now 3 pounds away and I love how I look.
But . . .
I am thinking about revising my goal downward a bit more. First, I think I would be okay at 120 — or even back to my old weight of 118. Second, I need to lose at least 6 pounds of body fat to hit my fitness goal. At this point, I am not exercising, so it’s a little silly to firmly set a fitness goal, but I have lost a lot of body fat and I certainly look forward to losing more.
A, the ex, wants me to stop losing weight. He thinks I am skinny, in a bad way. As I always remind him, I weighed 118 when we met, so I am still 10 pounds from that weight, which might have been too skinny.
F, the business partner/dictator of my image, thinks this is perfect. He asked me if I hit my goal and made I face when I told him I still had 3 more pounds to lose. He thinks once I hit that, I’m done.
It’s hard to tell if my desire to revise my goal is because I need to revise my goal or because I cannot clearly tell how I look. Is this enough? Do I look good now? Would I look better in another 8 or 10 pounds?
I think I will kick this discussion to my guy friends. They have zero vested interest, so they will tell me honestly. Then again, all of their girlfriends are super-skinny so they may not be the best judges.
My ideal body weight for my height and frame is 117-130, which is absolutely no help. I know when I weighed 113, I was too damn skinny, sickly, and my feet hurt in heels.
I have taken terrible pictures of myself on photobooth every 4-6 weeks to provide a frame of reference. I can see the unbelievable progress I have made. I know from clothing that I am ok now. I am receiving a lot of positive affirmation from everyone.
Still, I am torn. In 3 pounds, what do I do? I think I will keep going or start exercising regularly. I have already begun drinking wine again, with no appreciable slowdown in my metabolism. I have started having mini kefir smoothies, with no appreciable slowdown in weight loss.
I am sticking with the plan, and I will see how I feel as I go.