I have spent the Summer traveling and eating most of my meals in restaurants and drinking wine and going on dates. I was surprised, therefore, that, as of this morning, I am officially below my weight loss goal.
I have not been what I consider fat for more than 4 months. In general, I am really happy with my body. I love how I look in clothes and out. I am not thrilled by how I look in photographs because I always think I photograph fat. I am trying to get over that because I know it’s a body image thing and not a real thing.
I have not been dieting since I hit 128 at the beginning of June. That is a bit of a lie, though. Technically, I have not been focused on actively losing weight. Still, I am compulsive about watching what I eat and weighing myself (and recording it) every day I am in town.
I am in full-on maintenance mode, which for me means I eat as I wish. I know that is most irritating thing for a (now) thin person to say. I do eat exactly what I want, but what I want is very different than before.
The reality is that I still eat a low carb diet, carefully monitoring what I eat . . . for the most part. At times, I have eaten a roll or bread. I had white chocolate bread pudding for my birthday. BP and I have shared a few lemon tarts or key lime pies. I drink a glass of wine (or two) with most dinners out. I have had many days when I have eaten 5 meals a day in restaurants. Really.
I enjoy my food. I eat carefully. I exercise portion control, although I have been known to put away more than a half pound of pork ribs on my own (like 2 days ago), but I am incapable of eating an entire ribeye or anything larger than a petite filet.
I just pick everything carefully. I do not feel compelled to eat anything in particular. Before, I loved sugary stuff. I had a weakness for cookies, cake, ice cream, chocolate. Now, eh. I can eat a cookie without wanting to consume the whole bag. But, I almost never want to eat a cookie, even when they are completely available.
The two biggest shifts for me on maintenance have been adding back in alcohol and consuming kefir and greek yogurt. With alcohol, I am just sticking to wine and champagne, with the occasional lowest carb I can stand margarita (lime juice cointreau tequila on the rocks). Drinking spirits would be lower in carb, but I enjoy drinking wine and champagne. I now have kefir or greek yogurt with cinnamon as an evening snack. I sometimes make a mini cranberry or blueberry smoothie for a dessert, if I am home.
I am going to lose a couple of more pounds. BP is not happy that I have dropped 4 pounds already from what he thinks is my best weight. BP can mind his own business. Because of the traveling and eating out and hormonal fluctuations, I want to fluctuate up to “my best weight” rather than fluctuate to a weight at which I am not as happy.
I am not going to push myself to lose weight, but I know that if I continue to maintain and eat the way I should, I will lose those last two pounds or so.