Last night, I had a hard time falling asleep and then I was up at 2:30. I awoke from a strange dream and I couldn’t figure out where I was or where the ex was. I saw frightening shadows and I became scared. I feel asleep with one of the window blinds partially open in my room. I couldn’t see it, but the light made everything look strange. It took me about 5 minutes to realize I was at home in my own bed and the strange things I saw were shadows.
By then, I was thoroughly freaked out, so I watched end of Brokeback Mountain, which I really love. It’s such a sad, beautiful film about being in love in an impossible situation and how something so beautiful can be so destructive. I have a deep well of empathy for such things. The last 20 minutes, which was all I saw last night, is just heartwrenching.
Since I was clearly destined to continue crying and watching movies with Kate Mara*, I watched We Are Marshall, which came on next. It was surprisingly good, and a tremendous tear-jerker. It was actually much better than I would have thought. I had no interest in seeing it, mostly because of Matthew McConaughey, who I have not enjoyed since A Time to Kill. Until last night. He was so spectacularly believable, and so un-McConaughey-like, that now I have to reevaluate my ambivalence toward his projects. Plus, Ian McShane!
I slept again for an hour or two.
When I awoke, I watched a terrible movie on LMN called the Healer. I watched it because it was directed by Agnieszka Holland and starred William Fitchner, who I really enjoyed in Prison Break.
It was so awful.
It was like they filmed one of those “literary” women’s books my mother reads. The plot was complex and weird. Still, I had to keep watching to see what happened. The performances were mostly good, but the story was absurd, and not in a good way. No one behaved as normal people behave. There was no verisimilitude at all: everything just happened to drive this point about faith and faith-healing or something, but it just went off the rails. I hate movies that force their characters to service a completely inorganic theme.
* I had no idea who she was until I had to look her up in imdb.com because she was in two movies in a row, and I just had to know who she was.